2008-05-07T18:55:00.007+08:00

The story of Pandora's Box

Pandora was given a box by Zeus and told not to open it. She conceded to curiousity and all the evils of mankind plagued the world. Ironically, the last thing she let out was hope.

And the only reason why we all are still living today is because of hope :)

Im not giving up
I will live my life
Ill try hard
really hard
to live on
with hope
with love
with courage
Ill face myself
the greatest enemy
and even if theres such a thing called fate
Ill continue trying
until the day I die

Because that is life
Trying
Learning
Hoping
And at times, regretting.

Because what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.

Yup, many things are easier said than done. But dont forget, many things are easier then they seem too.

There are 2 kinds of faith in this world. Real faith and false faith.

Real faith could bring you to great heights and let you accomplish many things you never imagined you could. False faith on the other hand, does the opposite. It often makes you think you could do it, and induces some form of confidence in you. At times false faith seems so real, that once you failed, it crushes all your faith. And because of that, you think its the end of the world.

Real faith is often subconscious, it is integrated into you that you dont even know that you believe in it. While false faith usually goes like that, "I believe that...", hoping really hard that what you believe would come true.

Well, we must realise that false faith is not a bad thing. It brings up hope. Hope that what you believe would present itself to you one day. Although that rarely happens, at least you tried. At least you dont regret.

One innate characteristic of us is that we could not deal with disappointment. The disappointment that false faith always bring us. And often we do not realise that disappointment is not the cause of other's actions, but the lack of wisdom on our part. This lack of wisdom is not referring to the wisdom that we do not have in what we tried to do, but the inability of us to control the disappointment, to get back up again, to learn from those experiences, and to try harder.
And most importantly, to not deceive ourselves by thinking that we are better than we seem.

So many people are attracted to the practicallity of life. Portfolio, money, status, power, all this tangible benefits. But these things do not follow us to our deathbed. It dies with your body. What follows your spirit all the way, is the result of self-cultivation. The soul of thy.

And thats why the gods we pray to are usually those that have left a legacy, those that souls always follow us. Those, that spirit always linger around, ready to bless and inspire.

-Linky

Labour Day

2008-05-02T22:42:00.006+08:00

Labour Day

Woke up dam early today and that sucked. Went to school to have frisbee training.. but dam tired so was very slack. Dam jealous of the people running for interact exco. Actually dam jealous of people who got into interact. But more furious of those who quit after getting into council. HwaChong people are not very good at judging people.

Went to watch ironman with seniors and linus and lala and mingchong and wilson. Quite obvious who was late, but it was really funny cuz the two of them said they were batman and robin to get the tickets we left with the ticketing man.

At then went to CS concert. Bang bang bang. Lots of sniping, shooting, bombing and stabbing. Nonono. Actually I went to Chinese Society concert. Its some Dunman High thing. I think the dance and xiang shengs and performances were nice. So it means everything is nice. Got home really late and was damn bloody tired.

Today

Its lame when I sleep late but wake up feeling un-tired. Only until halfway through the day during Physics lecture I snooze off and then wake up and feel dam blur and forget Im actually holding the attendance and brought it home without realising it and risk the class having to all get 4 demerit points. Haha, I jus remembered I was nearly late for school today. But dont worry, I think teachers wont be so darn stupid to think the whole class ponned, considering there are CCTV cameras and other classes who obviously saw us there. But anyway Im quite sorry for my carelessness.

Chem test proved once again that you dont need brains or concept to do well for exams. Just need alot of drilling and memorizing and a pinch of concept to ACE the subject. HwaChong HwaChong.

But I guess drilling would somehow drill concept into our brains sooner or later (sooner = more than 3months).

As quoted from Jonneo:

"You wonder why it seems that everyone is power-hungry. Where the word 'portfolio' simply keep reappearing everywhere. Join council because of portfolio. Do this because of portfolio. Do that because of portfolio. You question where is the passion and belief that drives people to commit into what they are doing. Or are they simply doing it for their own purpose? You seek an answer, but you don't find any."

I think that some people are too practical and result oriented that often they do not see that the process sometimes is what makes it all worth doing rather then just judging things by the the end point result.

Oddly phrased, so I might have to consult Ee Hong for his fluent and eloquent liguistical skills to paraphrase what I just said, but you get what I mean.

It usually always ends up with, "Its like this what. The society is like this. Too bad loh. No portfolio, no recognition. Process your shit. You want process go work at factory, lots of processing there. I just want to get a good portfolio so I impress people. Afterall, the only way to judge a person in a short period of time is to see his portfolio."

Life sux when Im sick. Especially after a long long nap.

-Linky

Ha

2008-04-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

Im so guai. I went to cut short the back of my hair so now I dont look ah beng anymore. Now Im not angry.

Speaking of Ah beng, I realised I have never used wax in my life. At least not that I could remember of. I think I should try waxing my hair once. On weekends.

But Id still prefer my good boy looks :).

I just looked through the .pdf file of the courses and pre-requisites of subjects offered at NUS. Just as expected, PCME leaves you nothing much except for engineering and business related stuff. I really dont want to work in an office unless Im left with no choice, and that makes the all the arrows point to engineering which I have no interests in.. especially since it requires so much physics.

But its too early to think of such things. I must study well first.

TOUCH never failed to cheer up my Saturdays, especially after it has been plagued by the Science Symposium which made me realise I fail at being an usher, as well as displayed the ugly side of an adult.

I think even if you dont want a present that some students (not me) spent so much time making, you dont just shoo if off by saying "You help me keep ok." Even the minister said, "Thank you very much. I appreciate it."

Being a prominent figure in school, it disgusts me that you are indifferent about such things.

I think Zilei is very weird. He totally hates playing games. Which is so unusual of kids. But he loves to draw. And hes very cute. And so nice to play with :). If he becomes an artist, Im going to be the first guy to buy his drawings. I hope its not too expensive. Engineers arent rich.

Darn. I really regret not taking bio.

Tag replies:

Lix/LyOn: Im glad you thought so
Linus: *speechless
Jon/Marcus: nonono, not anymore
Zelia: Erm sorry but who are you arh I think I know you but I forgot your name. Ya but anyway Im discrimination-free :)
min: Marine engineering is still machines. Like building submarines. Which doesnt make much a difference from normal engineering so Im still screwed (so far).

-Linky

Hmmmmm

2008-04-24T21:57:00.004+08:00

I want to major in Marine Biology when I go to Uni. Ive always been fascinated by the sea.

But that wouldnt happen, because Ive never learnt bio and I regret it. Hmm maybe I could take Oceanic Geology. But I never take geography. Actually I dont even know if "oceanic geology" exists.

In any case, I want to do things related to the sea. But I dont think these kind of subjects are offered in Singapore.

Anyway that was just a random thought.

I like that fact that frisbee is starting to pick up. Our new coach teach us quite a bit. I think hes quite zai although hes quite short. I want to train hard and I hope the team also trains hard so that we wont get thrashed during nationals.

Im perturbed by my hair. I didnt realise the back is so long it makes me so ahbeng. Walao Im very civilised and nice loh.. not a ahbeng. My hair is not reflecting what I am. Walao. Im angry.

-Linky

Winner is me

2008-04-21T21:45:00.008+08:00

*EDIT: I feel enlightened. Guess its no longer that bad.

Presidential elections have ended. Jeremy and Qihan is definitely a good choice. From what I see, Jeremy is a good motivator and Qihan is an activator. Qualities of good leaders.

But I respect Rhea just as much. Although she might appear to be a weak, unconfident and quiet individual, but they way she speaks, the way she conveys her message and the way she brings her self about, its all very sincere and very motivational.

Coming from a different school, its like you enter a new game. You dont know anybody at all, and its hard to fit into the new environment. But she took up the challenge, ran for council, got in, and I thought she deserved it. Yet on the other end of the spectrum, some people were like, 'Wth, Rhea got in?'.

Different people have different viewpoints. Its inevitable. Thats how we balance out yin-yang. Thats how we bring about improvements to our lives. Differing viewpoints often bring about things we never thought of. And thats good, because it helps us look at more aspects of a problem.

But what I just want to say is that I think Rhea has alot of 内涵 (self-cultivation)。Something that many people are lacking nowadays. And its because of this 内涵 that I respect her as a person and I think she would make a good councillor.

Ok I guess I should stop here. Have a nice day. And I hope I have a nice one too :)

-Linky

CSM!

2008-04-17T20:57:00.007+08:00

I suddenly remembered about the guy who asked a council presidential candidate a very sentimental question during Q&A.

For those who dont know, it went something like this:

"We were close friends last year." <"oooohhh" from the crowd>
"But this year, when you ran for council, you ....."
"I dont know whether its because we are over-sensitive or because you have really distanced from us ......"
"... hypocrisy... .. can you tell us why?"

And the candidate answered:

"I was very tired... , sorry if it..."

After a few minutes, the questioner went back and said:

"The reason I asked you this question is because I treasure our friendship. I just hope that in the course of running for president, you do not forget your friends. Run with not only your brains, but with your heart"

Following so, he teared a little and ran out of the hall.

~~~

The reason why Im blogging about this is because Ive been heavily impacted by his sincerity and his courage.

Life is like a river, friends are the people who share the river with you.

They enter and exit your lives for all sorts of reasons.

Close friends paddle near you. And when you paddle too near them, you splash water onto them. And they get angry. So naturally close friends would have disputes, but its how you handle them thats important. You could help to dry his boat, you could give a word of apology or you could improve on your paddling skills. The choices are a plenty.

But if you choose to argue back and he also chooses what you chose, then both of your boats would be filled with water and sink in no time.

And as you continue paddling down the river, you might find boats that appeal to you. Naturally they appear sticky. If your boat appears sticky to the boat's owner too, then both of you could get attached.

But if you find 2 sticky boats, your legs get stuck to both boats when you approach them. Which accounts for the idiom 一脚踏两船/床。And usually you cant balance well when your legs are on 2 different boats. So you're gonna fall down dam fast if you do that.

Nevertheless, whats good about two boats sticking is that they dont capsize easily.

Yet whats not that good about two boats sticking is that when the boatman gets too engrossed about his partner, he neglects his friends. In extreme cases, the distance between him and all his friends approaches infinity.

I woulnt want to find an analogy for the above mentioned scenario of the presidential election candidate and his close friend(s), because I dont know the exact facts. But anyway, all I want to say is that: (sorry for the anti-climax)

There is a time to crap and there is also a time to be serious. What you think is funny is sometimes NOT as casual as you think it is.

~~~~

I realised this is the only year Ive participated so actively in CSM. Yesterday I went for long jump. Wow. Cant believe it rite? Lincoln long jumping. Wth. Just wanna say Im happy to get 5th :D

And all the other events I took part in:

Inter fac 8x200 (mixed): 8th :(

Inter fac 8x200 (boys): disqualified cuz baton drop :((( but judging by the circumstances then, more or less get 8th also.

Inter CT relay 4x100m (heats): 2nd :)

Inter fac relay 4x400m: 2nd :)

At this point in time, Ive got something I really want to say. I enjoyed running with my class and with the fac fullstop =)

Finally to end off, I discovered that many people think frisbee is a loser CCA. Just wanna say it is not what it looks like. Frisbee =/= central plaza frisbee. But cant control what people think, so just got to live with it =D. Hopefully the mentality would change soon.

I mean, people often dont understand things that are new to them. So I guess its ok haha.

-Linky

Tag replies

2008-04-16T19:47:00.002+08:00

Tag replies

min: it depends
shiang/marcus/dora: haha lol thx :)
Jon/Lix: (nth to say)
Elson/Pearlynne: hi :D
jiaying: hi lol tmr sure rain
ck: ive used glue hah
FTS: yea
Marcus: nah its ok :) I liked to listen to u all tok
Lyon: enjoyed toking to u too =)

Long day.

2008-04-14T22:17:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow confirm rain one. No need say. Dont even hope. Its hopeless. Its a curse.

Maths test, NAPFA test, hell with the tests. Running rocked my day. Its been so long Ive sprinted at the track. I really felt shiok. I cant wait for wednesday. I swear to top 6 the long jump. I ~~can~~ must do it!

And it was quite paiseh when I was the last runner for the 8x200 and I only got the baton when the 2nd last guy was like 100m ahead. Heck. I got OlymPISM.

I freaking hate my shoes. Its worn out and it made me fall down at the terraces. Lucky I didnt roll down the stairs like a cheeseball.

Suddenly I feel like going to sleep. Wth.

Im mad.

I should join MAD.

Darn.

Sorry for toking cock.

WTH la.

...

HwaChong boys should be more sensitive to girls. I mean, you dont go shouting the f word every now and then for NO apparent reason. Plus its dam insensitive to like link the girl to sexual stuff while playing a game of SOCCER. SOCCER leh. Dont be a SUCCER.

This is the first time in 3 years Im not studying for a PHYSICS test tomorrow. So I dont expect to do well and even if I do, I dont think I deserve it.

-Linky

Great sat

2008-04-12T22:23:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning I received an sms from daryl to go and buy studs. And very coincidentally, I met Lyon at Paya Lebar MRT while making my way to Queenstown. Its nice to talk to my dunman friends once again.

Heck about the details of shopping, jump straight to TOUCH.

Hell la Im addicted to TOUCH. The children there are so darn cute!~. And I think Im getting really good at handling kids, even/especially with hyperactive ones like ZiLei :).

Just like what Shuhui said, maybe Interact made a bad choice of not interviewing me.

But games was screwed. Many times the children were uninterested/rowdy/distracted and since Quek was dominating everything, I couldnt really do any shit about it, especially since I get interrupted whenever I try to speak.

After observing Quan Wei, Gladys and Seth in the previous months, Ive picked up some tips of controlling large bunch of children. And just when I thought I could try them out today.. ok nevermind.

The trip to Hougang Mall I felt excluded. Really.

Because Kaijun, Huijuan and Quek were talking about things I dont understand. All the inside jokes of their class and all the people I dont know. Dinner was still the same, I didnt get anything they were saying.

But after that it got better.

And it just reminded me of the gaowei-ness with Marcus and his friends at dinner yesterday. I assure you it is not their fault at all, seriously. These things are natural, especially when you dont know anyone of them, you just keep hearing them talk and at times they will go: "Hes bored." And you will just reply "no la". I mean, its not like you could do anything rite. However so, its feels good when they make such random comments cuz at least I know Im existent.

But what was really disturbing is that someone was talking about someone and suddenly he just stoned and looked and me and like "oh shit." (I didnt realise his presence)... like as if I cant be trusted and would backstab him and what shit. Bloody hell do I look like a stabber? wtf -.- you want gossip den dun scared the person kp u la. I dont like people giving me signs of distrust and then go "oh nothing la i realise theres no ice in the cup."

Disclaimer: This post has a tinch of unhappiness and anger in the beginning and end parts. Its just my way of expressing myself. Sorry if it disturbed you or anything.

-Linky

LAME!!

2008-04-10T21:02:00.002+08:00

If you get hit by a frisbee at your bench, remember

1) The person who goes and pick up the frisbee is not the culprit
2) Look for the person acting innocent, most probrably is him
3) Try to act very pissed off, then everyone would boo him then you know who liao loh ;)

On a brighter note, Ming Chong is finally back to normal. But MingChong 'normal' is = hyperactive ahbeng so maybe its not that good afterall.

Tuesdays and Thursdays always rain.. and its heavy rain somemore. April supposed to be dry weather so I dont know wth is happening now. But lucky rain today. Or else I dont know what crap MingChong and Wilson would be up to.

Life sux sometimes.

-Linky

WOW

2008-04-09T18:44:00.002+08:00

I went to triple jump for fun just now and I think NPCC sux. Look at what they were doing at the track. Cheer like my soft toy. Nvm.

I think triple jump is so cool. I swear Im gonna get into the finals for long jump next Wednesday. TRAIN. Jump training is fun. And I'll resolve to get A for my 2.4, Kkj has been owning me by 2 or 3 seconds recently and its like so fustrating. I MUST GET A.

I WANT TO JOIN NET2WORK and be an aspiring ENTREPRENEUR omgwtf. But wth its on Tuesdays so Im double considering now.

-Linky

Milk and Cheese

2008-04-06T17:21:00.015+08:00

A professor asked a student to drink a cup of milk.
The student was fustrated, so
The student said, "I dont like milk."
The professor saw the fustration in the student,
And so the professor said, "Here, try some cheese."
"I will cut short your detention if you eat it"
And the student ate it. He wouldnt mind cheese.
After the student ate it, he snobbed at the professor.
Then the professor asked, "Do you know that cheese is made from milk?"
Trying to be cool,
The student replied confidently, "Yes I do."
He thought that that would shut the professor up,
And then the professor asked again, "Then why do you like cheese and not milk?"
Just as the professor expected,
The student cant answer.

And so the professor gave the student 3 more packets of cheese and asked him to eat everything.
The student thought it was a challenge, and so he ate it.
After finishing the first packet, the student felt so full he didnt feel like eating anymore.
But he wanted to win the challenge and thus continued eating it
And so halfway through eating the second packet, he got sick of the cheese.
He was quite pissed off, until
The professor saw his dismay and offered him the milk. The student drank it willingly.
After finishing the milk, he gave the professor another snob.
And this time the professor asked him, "Why did you drink the milk? I thought you didnt like milk."
Trying to find an excuse to shut the professor up again,
The student replied, "Cheese made my throat dry and my taste buds salty, so the milk helps me neutralise the dryness and the saltiness."
He thought he had finally succeeded in shutting him up
And then the professor asked him again, "Now, would you want more milk, or more cheese?"
This time,
The student took some time to think, and he finally said, "For now, milk."

~~~

What you want is usually not as good as you think it is.

An aspiring singer would dream of becoming a star. But when she really becomes a star, she gets tired of it, and realise it would be better being a commoner. She doesnt want so much attention afterall.

An aspiring scientist would dream of becoming a prominent figure in the scientific world, but when he really becomes one, he gets tired of it, and realise it would be better being a commoner. He wants to spend more time with his family than his lab.

A little child might want to get a pet dog because he thinks its fun playing with it. But when he really gets one, he pisses off his mother because he doesnt clean up the dog's poo. He prefers to eat hot dogs.

And so, treasure what you already have. What you dream of wanting might just be the cheese. It tastes better. But often you dont realise that what you already have is actually just that precious.

Im not saying that you should not work towards your dreams, but in the midst of realising your dreams, dont forget what you have, dont take what you have for granted. Because only when you treasure what you have now, would you then be really happy.

-Linky

Now, only if you have read the milk and cheese story already, scroll up again, press ctrl+a and re-read the story again. The inspiring story might not be that inspiring afterall :/.

Many things in life are not explicitly there for you to see. You just have to read between the lines, and you would then realise things are just not what they seem to be :)

HORNY

2008-04-04T21:01:00.002+08:00

MingChong is dam act ahbeng/really ahbeng la. Zong zi hes jus dam ahbeng wtf -.- And dam horny also. Zzz I got pissed todae cuz he tok too much cock about some lame stuff. But unfortunately Im such a nice person I already forgot what happened. Haha I just wanted to say hes dam horny. HORNY...

I live quite a boring life leh. I want to go find some life.

Recently some ppl have been exceptionally dao.

-Linky

-Linky

HUANGCHENG

2008-03-10T21:05:00.007+08:00

! But holidays are almost not holidays haha I still prefer going to school later den have holidays cuz I usually end up playing dota/slacking. MUS MUG (at least a little) :).

Yesterday I watched wow its very nice.. but the emo play a little boring.. ah nvm I cant appreciate emo stuff lol. Suddenly Im stuck for words. Ok nvm. Taisoon brought our Dunman friends there! Somehow I felt nice seeing them again haha. Lets have a UTP outing again in June or something haha (:

After that I saw Jason Boey

~~~

There are things in life that are so special you dont want it to end, but if it never ended, then it wont be special anymore. And thats why we all have memories. To remember things and people we love.

Memories are precious. Memories sometimes bring regret. I hate regret.

I cant believe I almost cried watching CJ7. Just like secret. But this time I wont brood over it for 3 days 3 nights since its supposed to be a funny show.

-Linky

Wo ai mang

2008-03-08T19:50:00.009+08:00

Thursday

I was expecting to be very slack, but it turned out otherwise. Thats good :) at least its worth joining. I hate slacking off too much of my time anyway.

Friday

Leg freaking ached the whole day so I didnt go for wushu. Sorry arh =X

So instead I saw how changed the . Nice show

Today :)

I feel so exposed after attending expose today. <--- Freaking bad attempt for humour So I'll just put it there for fun. So many things to say, but somethings are better left unsaid. I just hope to get into to council. I love my frens and the school =). I hate crushed tissue paper boxes and rubber bands.

-Linky

Wow pictures

2008-03-05T21:36:00.002+08:00

2008-02-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

Im not gonna blog much about CNY cuz
1) Everyone is more or less complaining about their CNY
2) So dam much hw to do
3) The week sch-reopens is full of tests so..

初一

Alot of people came to my house.. its like I see them once per year, and the adults all tok in teochew/cantonese -.- Once in awhile someone will like raise his or her voice then they quarrel awhile den back to normal again. 情绪不稳定

初二

My bro got sick and was hospitalized but now hes fine. Down with some virus that makes him stomachache + fever + vomit. The doctor say that the rest of the family would dio sooner or later cuz its dam strong. And I hope hes toking cock. Ill go eat an apple now.

初三

Went out to watch dunk. Super duper lame show but very funny + nice. So I guess its ok. Den after that went for gift shopping with 6C (+seniors) haha I bought a very nice gift for my angel oO.

Oh yes. I had the most interesting MRT ride in my life. But cannot say here cuz lalala you know. Dun wan get sued.

初四

Stone+mug+dota+more mug+more more mug+stone.

-Linky